Do you see this darling girl?? I am so totally in love with her. This is my beautiful daughter Karoline Mei Qian (pronounced Chin). We call her Karleigh Mei or Qian Qian (Chin Chin). This little girl has already brought so much joy and love to our life. I am so very thankful that the Lord has trusted US to her care. What a treasure she is!!
I must say that originally I didn't think a child as "old" as she, would be something I could handle. I had read a ton of books on "attachment issues" of older adopted children and it scared me quite a bit. I also originally was fearful of her special need. Was/is there something hidden that we don't know about?? I was afraid of all sorts of things. I was afraid of even things I had made up in my mind. I had made myself believe that others who had adopted a child with special needs adopted because they knew all about that need. That they weren't fearful of anything. That they were stronger and more knowledgeable than I. But I have realized that I was wrong. That just about everyone who has adopted a child with special needs has felt the same fears as I have. But we also have all been so incredibly amazed at how the Lord has carried us all through it. That He doesn't expect us to know everything. That it's okay that we are afraid. All He wants of us is to follow Him. To trust Him that He does know what He's doing. I am so very grateful that I trusted in Him. That this child that He gave to us was His perfect plan. For her. For us. I am completely in love with my Karleigh Mei!! Completely and utterly in love!! I would go to the ends of the earth for her and back again!
Next week Karleigh Mei has an appointment with a Cranial/Facial doctor. I am at complete peace as to whatever he has to say. On March 20th she is going to have her eyelid surgery to correct her eyelid. While my heart grieves that she has to have surgery, I know it is what she needs and I have no fears about it or what is to come.
Praising God today for my beautiful and perfect daughter!!
12 Love Like Crazy Comments:
Beautifully said! It's a bit daunting to put complete trust in God on such a crazy adventure, but like you, I'm glad I did!
Thank you for this posting! I'm sure I will come back to this & reread it in the months/years to come for us.
Love Karleigh's overalls. She is such a cutie! Please keep me updated about her surgery. And let me know if we can do anything for you guys.
This is a beautiful post. Isn't it amazing how God shows us just what we need to know, only when we need to know it?! And then, doesn't He do wonderful and amazing things when we follow the little bit we know?!
Blesssings to you!
Sarah
What a beautiful post. I too was fearful about special needs and adopting a 3 year old. I am glad that I chose to trust God's plan and not let the fear win. I can't imagine life without Claire. We had been praying for Claire for 2 years, I don't know why I was letting fear creep in but I did.
Hugs,
Robin
What an incredible post! I think that any of us with a SN child feels the same!
Hugs, Jill
Oh Jenn What a great post. You can just feel the love you have for this child just gushing off the page. And I love the way you keep what you say real. It helps all us others out there. Thanks for still posting.
wonderful post, jenn!! thanks for sharing your heart!! what a cutie and special girl she is . . . perfect for your special family!
Great post...and I know just how you feel! What a beauty she is Jenn!!
Amen and amen! Thanks so much for sharing! She is so beautiful and the Lord's hand is on her! I will be praying for her surgery!
Much love and hugs~
Karleigh Mei hasn't just captivated her family, she has also stolen the hearts of the Blakeslee family! What a blessings this child is!
Couldn't have said it better myself!
I know exactly what you are saying about special needs! If we don't take captive all of those fearful thoughts that fear can dominate us. Thank God.. "greater is He that is in us!"
What a precious little girl you have!! I love those big bows! I'm going to start collecting some of those for Maylie!
We will be praying that all goes well with Karleigh Mei's surgery.
Blessings,
Lydia
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